a blog about nothing
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an addiction to misery
misery has always been a recurring character in my scattered multi-medium works of art. from my music to my high school film, this character has played the supporting role for a quite a long time. a character i recognise as not separate to myself, but rather as the part of me that’ll never abandon me.…
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im tired
i wrote about feeling like an outsider the other day, but lately been feeling even more like an outsider. my social skills feel like they’ve fallen apart, and i’ve become even more insecure about how people perceive me. i feel like i’m annoying, i feel like i come off as weird, i feel like i…
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can u like chill bro
sometimes i look at myself and see a certain sense of emptiness. I look at the people around me, i see how they interact with each other, have normal friendships, be normal people, and it strikes me with a sense of envy. these people have an IT factor, something indescribable, this way of fitting in…
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how many times can i use humour to cope?
i haven’t written here for a little bit. Why is it that every single night that i abuse alcohol, i despise going back home? maybe a certain extent of it comes from the fact that i avoid my emotions, because when the party ends , so does my ability to distract myself from the reality…
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2023 reflections.
I spoke last year of people coming to my rescue, old friends and new friends alike, causing me to disown my obsessive tendencies. That desiring this exclusive crazy love was an inherently broken idea. I also cast away this ambition to drown but often found apathy in its wake. It’s bizarre, it feels bizarre to…
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yo bro stfu
Lately, I’ve been thinking about my future, and what the future entails for me. I’d like to believe that I have a bright future ahead of me, trust me I really would, but how is one supposed to today? In the world that we live in, how does one not sell their soul and still…
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something funny i hope oh geez my favourite funny guy posted
today I had the desire to look back at an event, something that bothers me today as well. an acquaintance, whom I would be proud to call a friend if i could, and the impression i set on him and how i let him down. this person is an excellent writer, a well traveled man,…
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wow, the person with unresolved trauma has issues?? who knew?
going through my videos lately has started to prove a thing to me , i’ve been a shitty person my entire life. there is good that exists within me, yes, i am aware of that however it seems that the bad tends to outweigh the good. i’ve tried to think about my entire life and…
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